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Blue

by Elisa on August 4, 2011

in family matters,ramblings,reminiscing

Our vacation is over. We are home. I am one husband and one daughter short, since he is in the US and she stayed in Sardinia with my parents. The house is surprisingly quiet with just me and Stella in it. Which frankly isn’t necessarily a bad thing, I could do with some quiet right now.

Today I was excited to be home. I kicked off my shoes, gave Stella a snack, and then we took a looooong (and much deserved, if I say so myself) nap. I was exhausted from only sleeping about 4 hours last night, and from a few days of large gatherings – in all my years away, I seem to have Swissified, or at the very least un-Sardinianized, ’cause I spent a lot of the time thinking “Huh, that’s peculiar”; and family get-togethers, though fun, leave me decidedly worn out.

But the exhaustion is party emotional: though they left me tired, those gatherings made me feel integral part of the “tribe” again. I remembered how much fun it is to be surrounded by people who will always love you completely and unconditionally, no matter how little you see of each other or how far you live or how different your lives are – to them I am just me, Elisa, their little cousin/niece/aunt/daughter.

They don’t care about my clothes, my travels, my weight; they see beyond all that casual acquaintances might see, and they know that although my clothes and appearance may have changed, though I live far, though I feel like a stranger sometimes when I go home… they know I’m still me. I love my family.

And that is why this return is bitter-sweet; that is why I was crying last night while packing, and hiding my tears and blaming my upset on luggage trouble not to upset my dad, who despite me being an adult, married and with my own family, and despite the fact that I have been gone for half of my life… to him I am still his little girl. Like everyone else, he sees beyond, and understands that my leaving was never about him, and that I love him dearly, even if from far away for most of the year.

And my island… what can I say about it, except how much I love it? That maybe for the first time in my life, I too can see beyond its appearance?

That I can see its strength beyond just the rocky cliffs
follow the cliffs

and its warmth beyond that of the sun on the white beaches
Sa Prama

and that the narrow streets that made me feel trapped now make me feel nestled and protected
Nuoro - old town

and that I am thankful for that beautiful sea, that challenged me to look further and see what was beyond, to ask more of myself and find out what I was capable of?
Cala Gonone

I could say all this and more, but for now I’ll just say:

I love you Sardinia, and I miss you already! But I’ll be back soon, I promise.

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Sardinia gives you this feeling of being away from the rest of the world – it’s an island, true and true. It’s as if there’s Sardinia, and then there’s the rest of the world – and other places seem far away, remote, almost surreal.

Nuoro was isolated from the rest of the world.

Nuoro is the main city in one of the Sardinian provinces; although at 40,000 inhabitants, it’s barely a city at all. Nuoro was built on hills, 45 minutes from the coast. Growing up, it always seemed like such a sleepy town, such a boring place to live – it almost made me feel claustrophobic sometimes, and I couldn’t wait to move on to greener pastures.

Every time I go back, that feeling creeps back, and it always throws me. How can someone feel that way about the place where they were born, grew up, went to school?

I decided to take those feelings head-on, and tackle Nuoro the same way I did Zurich when we first moved back: look at it as a tourist would, with a keen eye for anything beautiful and characteristic, and without the jaded heart of the seasoned (and often bored) local.

So I went looking. Searching for beauty, for something that spoke to me, something that told me a story about this city I never tried to get to know well. I went looking… and hoped I could look at it all with with new eyes.

From the window of her house she could see the nearby mountains of Orthobene with their dark forests and jagged grey peaks. Farther off was a chain of limestone mountains which sometimes appeared violet, sometimes lemon-coloured, sometimes dark blue, depending on the variations of the light. And in the distance, the snowy peaks of Gennargentu emerged.*

Where else would I start, but with the Monte Ortobene, which is part of so many happy childhood memories? Nuoro’s very own little mountain is barely 3,133 feet tall, but  it has always been a popular spot with Nuoresi of all ages: kids can ride their bikes and run around in the parks and playgrounds, and in the summer it’s the best place to escape the heat and enjoy a fresh breeze, take a walk or have an ice cream or a drink with friends, while you patiently wait for the weekend to arrive so you can drive down the the beach.

Unlike the Swiss mountains, which manage to look elegant and rise proud and majestic, Monte Ortobene has a distinct wilderness to it, all thick vegetation and uneven rocks.

rough terrain, blue skies

Sant’Onofrio is a hill not far from the Monte Ortobene, and it’s home to the last castle in the city, as well as a park with a panoramic view of most of the town.

Nuoro - Sant'Onofrio

Nuoro - Sant'Onofrio

Nuoro is full of churches, most of them oddly conservative compared to many other Catholic churches around Italy.
However driving down from Sant’Onofrio, I couln’dt help but notice how beautiful the bell tower of the cathedral looked against the blue sky – and when I heard a the lovely voices of the children’s choir rising out of the church’s dark interior… I am not Catholic, but I simply couldn’t resist the lovely atmosphere, so we parked the car and walked around the piazza, listening to the choir, enjoying the cool breeze and taking some pictures.

Nuoro cathedral - Santa Maria della Neve

But I couldn’t forget Nuoro’s claim to fame and one of Italy’s best-known writers: Grazia Deledda, who received the Nobel Prize in Literature in 1926. Her old home is one of Nuoro’s main tourist attractions, and it just happens to be in a part of town that is in and of itself very characteristic, having changed very little in the past century.

Nuoro old townNuoro - Via Su Connottu (Old Town)

Quotes from Grazia Deledda’s books are everywhere on the walls of old buildings in alleys all around this part of town, including one that leads us, once again, towards the Monte Ortobene.

Nuoro - Grazia Deledda quote on wall in the old town

"The Ortobene rose above the grey streets, pink in a sky that was the color of ash."

I am certainly not a Nobel Prize winner, but I can’t help but relate to Grazia Deledda – she, too, found Nuoro constricting, she too looked forward to being able to leave and see new things and new places. But she managed to find inspiration in this closed-off place, at a time when women had little to no freedom to learn, experience things and even be themselves . I find that incredibly inspiring. And oddly, it might just be what brings me a little closer to this town that never quite felt like home.

“Our great anguish is life’s slow death. This is why we must try to slow life down, to intensify it, thus giving it the richest possible meaning. One must try to live above one’s life, as a cloud above the sea.”**

I always thought of myself as someone who could enjoy life. I managed to do it in every place I have lived in or visited, even Zurich – why not right here in my hometown? I have a few more days to figure it out.

How do you feel about your hometown? Does it feel like “home”? Or if you, like me, couldn’t wait to leave, do you feel differently about it now?

 

 

 

Credits: quotes marked with * from Presentation Speech by Henrik Schück, President of the Nobel Foundation (at the time) before awarding Nober Prize in Literature to Grazia Deledda in 1927. Quote market with ** from one of Grazia Deledda’s letters.

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