It is the second day of May, and my New Month’s Resolutions are due.
But I have to confess: they are not ready! I spent Saturday, the last day of April, studying some beautiful materials which are helping me understand my life a lot better, and I spent all of yesterday, May 1st, traveling by train with a friend through the mountains of Grischuna, before making our way down to Bellinzona, where we enjoyed warm weather and a delicious gelato, among other things. In one day, I walked in the snow, saw an Alpine lake and a peek of a glacier, explored an ancient castle and laid in the grass in my t-shirt, and by the time I emerged from the train back in Zurich, I was absolutely knackered but elated.
So you see my friends, I had a good excuse for not being here, writing my goals for the upcoming month!
Though I have been feeling, increasingly, that I do not need an excuse. That I don’t need excuses, and that I don’t need to feel guilty. You either do something or you don’t, right? Either way, guilt doesn’t make it any less so.
This is a brand new feeling for me. Feeling guilty, feeling like I wasn’t doing enough, was a way of life. Let’s take blogging: that sense of guilt I always felt when I found myself looking at my blog posts and realizing I had spent very little time on GIH, has been more or less muscled out by the joy I am finding these days in living my life.
For the first time in years, I feel well; and I feel like I can start living my life to the fullest again , which to me means doing what I decide to do, every second of every day, and give it my all. Which isn’t to say that my life is now a never-ending vacation — we all have work to do, we all have “duties”. But it should never be part of anyone’s life to feel forced to do something they hate, or to feel stuck living a life that’s not the one we want. However freedom isn’t necessarily found in dumping all your responsibilities and jetting off to a life of dolce far niente, as we say in Italy (sweet idleness, or at least sweet carelessness!); no — freedom is in finding purpose in the things we do. Do you have to go to work? Yes you do. But why? To feed your family, afford your holidays, support the causes you believe in? Then you are not forced to do it, you do it because you care about those things, and this is how you choose to go about it.
I think that when we find the why behind everything we do, behind everything that goes on in our day, we have a better chance of finding the energy to make every action purposeful — and purposefulness tends to lead to inspiration and creativity… which in turn have a way of making even the most mundane task a bit of fun 🙂
Lofty goals are not reached in a day. There’s some work to do, there are some bricks on that yellow-brick road to step on.
So find you Oz, then be grateful for the chance to make the journey, and take every step with purpose, even when your legs ache, knowing that it’s taking you a little bit closer.
Or, in the words of Leonardo Da Vinci:
Have a wonderful week, friends!